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May 7th, 2007 @ 6:44pm] |
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i never thought words on a piece of paper could bring me to tears. but i cried.
my life is passing by and i've been watching it happen.
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[Tuesday
March 13th, 2007 @ 8:08pm] |
i dont remember the last time i even looked at livejournal, let alone posted something. my life as of recently has been moderately OK. despite my loneliness and constant boredom, im doing just fine. writing this right now is more of something to do but something is better than nothing any day. im pretty sure the only people on my LJ friends list are florida people, so let me just say if youre reading this i miss and love you dearly. all i need to do is hang in there for a few more months and ill be back home. i really really cant wait.
its amazing how much i thought i had to say before i started writing.
my past haunts me everyday. not one fucking day goes by....
well thats that i guess
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[Monday
November 20th, 2006 @ 7:45pm] |
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But some things never get better
like used cars and bad livers.
or broken hearts
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[Sunday
September 24th, 2006 @ 7:29pm] |
all i can say is that its funny the way life throws its curve balls.
"so whats another day to spend away from her and die a little more inside? its just another night to lie awake and wonder... i've written a thousand pages in her name and i just want to know, does she ever regret? does she miss our love? my soul has shattered and fallen to the floor. i still remember your face and how beautiful you were to me. when we were beautiful, together. looking back it was so beautiful. it could have been so beautiful. i remember."
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[Friday
August 25th, 2006 @ 2:07am] |
You know that summer never stopped, I still pretend I'm there,
The band's in the living room,
The neighbors, they never cared,
So when I sat behind the drumset,
Your heartbeat's what I tried to play,
But with the kick and snare so careless, not in time,
So you got ahead of me, And I guess I'm still dragging behind.
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[Thursday
August 10th, 2006 @ 12:35pm] |
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jacks fucking mannequin today!
yess something to be happy about
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[Saturday
June 24th, 2006 @ 6:29pm] |
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ahh its good to be home.
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[Tuesday
May 9th, 2006 @ 3:07pm] |
THE BAMBOOZLE
EMANUEL
ALEXISONFIRE
THE RECEIVING END OF SIRENS
30 SECONDS TO MARS
METHOD MAN
PANIC! AT THE DISCO
SENSESFAIL
HIM
AFI
AIDEN
MONEEN
STRIKE ANYWHERE
ACCEPTANCE
SAY ANYTHING
UNDEROATH
SAVES THE DAY
LIFETIME
TAKING BACK SUNDAY
BEDOUIN SOUND CLASH
PAINT IT BLACK
STATE RADIO
I AM THE AVALANCHE
VAN STONE
MEN WOMEN AND CHILDREN
NIGHTMARE OF YOU
CIRCA SURVIVE
BYEHERSMILE
LAST PERFECT THING
AS CITIES BURN
THE NUMBER 12 LOOKS LIKE YOU
HE IS LEGEND
STRETCH ARM STRONG
THE FALL OF TROY
POISON THE WELL
THE BLED
EVERY TIME I DIE
FROM AUTUMN TO ASHES
CRASH ROMEO
ZOX
SOUND THE ALARM
PERMANENT ME
ENVY ON THE COAST
CUTE IS WHAT WE AIM FOR
A THORN FOR EVERY HEART
LIVING THINGS - CANCELLED
THE RIVERBOAT GAMBLERS
FLUFF MY BONER
PRYDE
THE ATTACK
CAPTURED BY ROBOTS
AWFUL WAFFLE
FIRE IT UP
GREEN LIGHT GO
THE MERCURIAL
TRANSFUSION M
MC LARS
DOWN BY NINE
THE ROCKIN 69'S
SOMEDAY NEVER
CAFFEINE
AND THEN THERE WERE MACHINES
ANCHORS FOR ARMS
OFF BROADWAY
RUDEBOY & THE SKANKIN' ZOMBIES
Oh hell yea i was there
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[Thursday
May 4th, 2006 @ 4:02pm] |
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remember the past. remember the pain. fix by forgetting. embrace the rejection. blinded by words. deafened by though. the concrete was cold. this childhood is over. erasing fueled by anger. anger fueled by blood. your blood, your choice, you fucked me up. grinding skin, scarred hands and red eyes. Is my work done? 1-2-3 and we're gone. kerosene burns away. water evaporates. we get a second chance. 1-2-3 and we're gone.
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[Wednesday
April 19th, 2006 @ 2:00pm] |
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so much to do so little time.
spring break...what a rush. I love it.
got people to see and places to go.
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[Tuesday
April 4th, 2006 @ 3:28pm] |
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IF you had to pick a song to play at my funeral what song would you pick?
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[Thursday
March 16th, 2006 @ 8:24pm] |
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so heres the deal
i wanna know what you guys think about me. be 100% honest, your not gonna hurt me or whatevre im juts curious.
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[Tuesday
February 21st, 2006 @ 7:45pm] |
i miss you guys so much it makes me sick to my stomach.
"so leave yourself intact cause' i will be coming back"
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[Monday
October 10th, 2005 @ 12:10pm] |
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papers are being signed as i type for a settlement date on my house for the 15th of novemeber.
all i can see is the smiles fall asleep
and now im scared.
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[Sunday
September 25th, 2005 @ 11:02pm] |
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October 28th, goodbye Florida, hello Vermont (or wherever the fuck my parenst decide to go)
see all those people on the ground
wasting time
I try to hold it all inside
but just for tonight
the top of the world
sitting here wishing
the things I've become
that something is missing
maybe I...
but what do I know
and now it seems that I have found
nothing at all
I want to hear your voice out loud
slow it down, slow it down
without it all
I'm choking on nothing
it's clear in my head
and I'm screaming for something
knowing nothing is better than knowing at all
on my own
on my own
on my own
on my own
on my own
on my own
without it all
I'm choking on nothing
it's clear in my head
and I'm screaming for something
knowing nothing is better than knowing at all
on my own
why is it so hard to move on?
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[Tuesday
September 13th, 2005 @ 11:11pm] |
I always catch the clock, its 11:11 and still you dont wanna talk
awesome time.
help.
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[Thursday
August 11th, 2005 @ 10:50pm] |
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When all this pain is justified,
While all the time is passing by.
Now is when we clench our fists
Knowing we can fight through this.
The hours and days are gone.
The weeks and months are moving on.
Can't they see that's nothing gonna stop us now?
Broken wings
Have a home tonight.
No one is listening, no one is listening.
When darkness fell on the streets last night,
we never expected, we never expected this.
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[Sunday
August 7th, 2005 @ 9:12pm] |
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Here we go. A brand new day brings a brand new year and for so many reasons I'm taking a deep breath.
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July 30th, 2005 @ 9:24pm] |
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whats left of the dreams we had?
whats left of the hope we had?
nothing at all.
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